He is able.

Last Thursday I received ADA paperwork in the mail.  It was time sensitive and needed to be filled out by my Dr.  My hubby and I saw my Dr at 10:00 am Friday morning.  We broke down all my diagnoses (Lupus, Fybromyalgia, Osteoartheritis and depression) and medications (yes, i am back on Prednesone and plaquenil and cellcept and flexeril and tramadol and too many more to remember)....

 We discussed the fact that Lupus is not curable and mine was continuing to be active that I am unable to work the 45 hours that is required of me as a Center Director with 30 staff and 205 kids.

So right now as of today I am on FMLA for 12 weeks (unpaid) I am applying for STD and I am praying  that I will trust God will take us through this storm. I have the 12 weeks of security of my job and my benefits.  So I am committing to pray that God will lift this from me (us) and HE will get us through.  I know HE is in charge and He is able.

A great Bible verse:

Therefore he is able to save completely those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them. Hebrews 7:25

A Great Song:

He is able more than able

To accomplish what concerns me today

He is able more than able

To handle anything that comes my way

He is able more than able

To do much more than I could ever dream

He is able more than able

To make me what He wants me to be!

Forgive me for being so negative

Well the fish oil and Glucosamine Chondroitin which I started taking almost 3 weeks ago are doing nothing...I am worse if anything.  I now have a new scary symptom.  It has happened 3 nights in a row.  I wake up from the pain of a crushing kind of pressure of a headache...in the back of my head...its bad....it seems if I move around and try to get comfortable it goes away so it doesn't last long but it is scary... If I have another one tonight I will contact my Dr tomorrow...I felt one coming on during the day today but it never got bad.  I ran a low temp today as well.  I did work.

I have been tired, stiff, in pain and just miserable...there's no other way to say it. Since this blog is my journal I need to be specific so I can look back over this if need be.  I also have no memory....beyond an age thing...believe me... So forgive me for being so negative..I hate it too....

I Guess I'll Just Have A Pity Party....

You have got to be kidding me.....my knee pain continued so I call Rheumotologist and she wanted me to come in... She said she didn't need an MRI to be able to tell I have Osteoarthritis in my knees.  They crack and pop and grind with simple bending.  She said it was bone on bone and it was a degenerate disease just like when I had to have the disc removed from my back...she gave me options.  Rest and continue taking all meds plus fish oil and glucosamine Chondroitin which I stopped and bought at Walgreens and  when I got home I only had the fish oil.

Other options include injections in knees or knee braces or it could lead to surgery.  All of which I am not going to do and why I am sitting at home with Fish oil.........

She suggested water aerobics and weight loss and right now I am just feeling really frustrated....

Lupus, Fibromyalgia and Osteoarthritis ......I am 58 years old and can't imagine what it will be like in 10 years....

I guess I'll just have a pity party.........